Outlander S2 Ep7 "Faith" Recap

Outlander has steadily maintained that they are not afraid to shy away from the harder, raw elements in the books.  This episode is a good example of that. 

It may seem to some, particularly if you only watch the show, that the show loves to torture just about every major character out there.  Well, yes, it does seem that way at times, but let me assure you with the saying "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger".  Jamie and Claire's turmoil and trials are only just beginning, but with each and every one, it makes them stronger, not only as individuals, but especially as a couple.  As for Fergus, I will reassure you as well, he has a great support system of love and caring around him and he grows up to a strong young man.

I would be lying if I said that the tragedies that befall our beloved characters does not affect me. It always has all these years I have read and re-read the books.  It is even worse now sometimes when I have to witness it on screen.  There is one near tragedy that is in the 5th book, and has to do with Roger and changes him and what he does forever.  Two pages.  That is all the scene is and in his perspective.  It takes me weeks to get past that because I am anal in my reading. I have to read everything and hate to skip over things.  I shudder to think of how this is going to look on screen shall Outlander get to that point. If you have read The Fiery Cross, you will know the scene I speak of.

This episode is one of those tough ones. We book readers knew it was coming and I could see on social media some just bursting to blurt it out, but they refrained.  When it comes to the suffering and pain, I believe some of us, like me, try to put ourselves in those character's shoes and ask.....How much could I handle?  Would I survive this?  Could I forgive and move forward?

This show has been called a "bodice-ripper" which is a term I hate almost as much as categorizing the show under SciFi. It is a love story, more than a romance.  We follow Claire and Jamie from the time they meet, through their entire life!  That is more than romance.  We get angry with them, we cheer them on, we laugh with them and also cry in despair.  The story is about the trials and tribulations that occur in their lives and how they endure and get through them together. By doing this, we see over time how it strengthens them as a couple and how their love endures the test of time, even after they die (hence Jamie's ghost).

"Faith" is a prime early example of one (yes, there will be more) of those ultimate tests of strength and love.  However, the opening in 1954 with a pretty little redheaded girl may have left those of you who have never read the books a little confused.  The little girl, seated in a library is looking at a beautifully illustrated book of birds.  She calls for her "Mama" and Claire comes over to her.  She asks her mother what kind of bird it was on the page to which Claire replies that it is a heron.  When asked by her darling daughter if she had ever seen a heron before,  she pauses briefly and gets a distant look and then smiles and says a long time ago.  That girl's name is....or rather Will Be.....Brianna.  The baby Claire is pregnant with when she returns to Frank.  Remember, Claire is pregnant when she went back to Frank, but not AS pregnant as we see her in 1744.

As Claire remembers seeing a heron, we see the bird on the page fade to an actual one in flight. We are now back in Paris in 1744. Claire is pale and very sickly looking lying on a bed at L'Hopital des Anges. The scene is in slow motion as she is remembering Mon. Forez working on her and Mother Hildegarde trying to talk to her and keep her calm. Mon. Forez seems to have an angry face on as he is working, but I believe it may be concentration.  He is an executioner after all.  Claire has a moment of clarity and she calls out about her baby and Jamie.  Mother Hildegarde talks to her and tells her she needs to be still.  There is blood and we see even more with Claire's legs spread to the sides as the camera pans out. There is a battle here, and it is happening inside Claire's body.  Claire remains still and focuses on a heron flying in the air outside the window.

Time passes and Claire has been moved to a nicer bed along with a statue of the Virgin Mary.  She awakens and feels her empty, slack tummy and starts to panic.  She cries out "My baby!  Where is my baby?!"  Mother Hildegarde appears (seriously, does this woman ever sleep?) and she grasps Claire's face with kindness and tenderness and she tells Claire, "I am sorry Madame.  She has joined the angels.  She was born dead."  First set of tissues gone.  

Claire begins to cry and then denies what she was just told.  A young nun standing nearby points to the statue and tells Claire that the Virgin Mother can comfort her.  I know the nun was just trying to comfort Claire, but......way too soon. At this, Claire starts to become frantic and quite insistent. She cries out "I want my baby!  Bring me my baby!" over and over.  Finally, reinforcements arrive in the form of a few more nuns who attempt to get Claire to lie back down on the bed.  In the process the statue is knocked over and goes crashing to the floor.  The shattered remains lying on the floor, a symbol of the shattering of Claire's life, spirit and soul.

A few days later, Mother Hildegarde comes by to visit Claire and secretly tells her that she baptized and buried the baby in hallowed ground.  It is illegal to do so, she explains, unless the child is born alive, but she did so and named the baby girl "Faith".  Claire asks about Jamie, but Mother Hildegarde replies that she has heard no word.

Late that night, Claire, not getting any healthier as the days go on, is feverish and having a fitful sleep.  Bouton the dog is lying on her feet.  He growls as a hooded figure approaches.  The figure orders Bouton down and the dog leaves.  A hood is drawn down and we see it is Master Raymond.  He hushes Claire and tells her to not to alert the nuns that he is there as he is not to be there.

He asks Claire what she sees.  She tells him large wings, blue wings.  He tells her that is good, as the color blue is for healing and the wings can help carry her pain away.  He begins to touch key areas on Claire's body and we hear Claire's voice over tell us that she knows what is wrong.  It is called puerperal fever or "childbed fever".  A piece of the placenta got left behind and is now festering and causing deadly infection.  She claims to feel the infection "burst" at each point Master Raymond touches.  The last one looks to be Master Raymond reaching up inside Claire and she moans.  He tells her to call him.  Claire doesn't at first and Master Raymond repeats his order.  Finally, Claire lets it out and screams "Jamie!" and falls back to her pillow. Master Raymond quick finishes and hides behind a curtain just before a young nun comes to see what ails Claire.  Claire tells her to please go fetch Mother Hildegarde and tell her she is doing better.  The nun rushes off and Master Raymond reappears and simply says "Be well Madonna."  Claire replies that she has no child so therefore she is not a Madonna.  Master Raymond explains that he did not call her that because she was pregnant.  It was because her aura was the color blue.  "Yours is blue.  Like the Virgin's cloak.  Like my own."  He adds that the King is indeed out for blood but he had to come because "these are the things you do for friends.".He orders Bouton back on Claire's feet and disappears moments before Mother Hildegarde arrives.

Mother Hildegarde arrives to find Claire miraculously healed.  Claire takes the opportunity to ask her about Jamie.  Mother Hildegarde replies that Jamie was taken to the Bastille for dueling.  Dueling is highly illegal in Paris and Jamie will remain in prison at the "king's pleasure" which means as long as the king feels like it.  However, if the other man (aka Black Jack Randall) had been killed in the duel, the punishment would have been much worse.  Claire is stunned to hear that once again, Randall lives!  Will the bastard NEVER die??  Can we say Jesus H. Roosevelt Christ? 

Mother Hildegarde remarks to Claire "It is fortunate, is it not?" in regards to Jamie getting the lesser of the two sentences. However, Claire does not see it as such.  She is extremely bitter and angry.  She explains to Mother Hildegarde that Jamie broke his promise to her.  She had asked for only one year's grace, but his vengeance meant more to him than her or his unborn child.  Claire explains the terms of the promise to Mother Hildegarde and ends with "He may as well run his sword through me."  Mother Hildegarde listens with an empathetic ear, but counsels Claire with a passage in the Bible that speaks of God's model for forgiveness.  Claire gives Mother Hildegarde a glare and says "I am not sure there is a sea deep enough." and turns her head away.

Several days later, Fergus comes to visit and brings Claire a bouquet of flowers.  Anemones, which symbolize protection from evil and sickness, but most importantly they symbolize mourning.  Overall appropriate given the situation.  He asks Claire to please come home and she accepts, though she dreads doing so, noting her body is healed, but her mind and soul are not.

When they arrive back at the house, the servants all rush out and form two lines.  The fact that every single servant in that household came out to greet Claire home, speaks volumes of their affection and respect for Claire.  Fergus gives Claire a hand down from the carriage and she pauses, looking at the servants as they all bow to her.  As she starts her walk down the lines, they keep their heads bowed down.  You can see it is deeply touching Claire as she walks slowly. This is much more than she expected.  She is stopped by a openly weeping Suzette who comes up to Claire and squeezes her hands and returns to her place in line.  

At the end of the line, is Magnus.  He was there when Claire collapsed and he had taken her to the hospital. He starts to bow to her, but Claire quickly stops him by placing a hand on his chest.  Instead, she finds his hand and squeezes it and thanks him.  She lets go and bows to him, tears in her eyes.  He is taken aback by this sign of respect from and employer.  He is but a servant and he probably has never had an employer bow to him. This is a powerful scene and I cried through it all.  Claire shows Magnus such respect and that she values him and everyone, no matter what your station in life is.  All life matters.  

That night, Fergus brushes Claire's hair.  She thanks him and as he puts the brush down on the vanity he pauses.  She asks him what is wrong as he looks at one of her perfume bottles.  He pauses by the door and says "Nothing Milady." and retreats out the door.

Later that night, Claire is restless in her bedroom.  She sees the box with the Apostle spoons and opens it, takes one out, looks at it.  She puts it back, slams it shut, picks it up and kicks it under the bed.  She puts on her robe and is walking the halls crying when she hears Fergus crying out.  She heads to his room.

When she goes into his room, she sees he is sleeping, but having a nightmare. She softly wakes him and asks him what it was.  He is not wanting to talk about it, but then decide it best to tell her.  He says it was much more than just a bad dream.  Three words out of his mouth next, makes Claire cringe.  "The Englishman, Milady."  Fergus then begins to walk through the story with a simplistic nature of the child he is.  

He confesses that Jamie had taken him to the brothel and told him to stay put.  However, once a thief, always a thief and he could not resist a look around to see what he could find.  He came upon a door that was partway open to one of the rooms and no one was there.  He saw a bottle of perfume on the table. He went in and put it in his pocket.  We viewers relive that part as a flashback from last weeks episode and then go back to Fergus and Claire.  He tells her that with what happened he was afraid to give it to her and reaches under his pillow.  He pulls out the bottle and hands it to Claire.  "It is lavender." he tells her and Claire's face says it all to us.  Lavender = torture and evil....Jack Randall.  Of course she doesn't let Fergus know this.

Fergus continues his story and we viewers go back to where the door slams shut and Fergus turns around and we now see Randall standing there.  He looks at Fergus, says "You are not what I ordered - but you will do." and lunges at Fergus.  Fergus explains to Claire that he tried to tell Randall that Jamie was there, but the man would not listen.  He does not go into graphic detail of what Randall did, but we viewers get the idea with Randall pinning Fergus face down on the bed and the boy screaming and trying to get away.  

The camera stays on his face the whole time and it goes between that which happened in the past and the present Fergus talking with Claire.  I can't imagine my own children.....or any child.....going through something like this.  I can tell you this, however, this was a hard scene for my psyche to go through.  I suffer from PTSD and the root cause was sexual molestation for at least 6 years as a young child.  My heart started to pound faster and harder and I actually started to sweat and shake a little.  However, I got through it.  I DO NOT condemn the show for allowing this scene to happen.  It is one of those things that needs to happen to make that character who they are and now, Jamie and Fergus have something in common and it brings them closer. They handled this scene beautifully and in good taste as they did with Jamie's.  It doesn't make it any easier to watch, but it is a needed scene for future events, just like Jamie's

Jack Randall is everything and a sadistic sick S.O.B.  He likes to be dominant (excuse me while I laugh at the vision I just had of him in leather). He takes his pleasure where ever he can get it, even if that means raping a young boy.  Should you, as a viewer be disturbed or even disgusted by this event? If you aren't, then there may be something wrong.  However it does not mean that you yell and scream and tell the show people they need to stop with all this rape stuff.  Let me tell you, I can recall at least 3 more over the course of the books, so if you hate that, you may have to stop watching.

Back with Fergus, Claire (who by now has realized Jamie had a very valid reason for breaking his promise), asks Fergus why he never said anything.  He replies that he was "ashamed" and blamed himself.  Sound familiar?  It should, as it is almost the same thing Mary Hawkins told Claire when she was raped.  When Claire tries to reassure him, he protests and says "No, no it wasn't! It was all my fault!"  He says he tried to stay quiet but found it impossible and that Jamie heard him and came running to find him.  

Jamie burst into the room, pauses for just a second, eyes widening in horror at what he is seeing and lunges at Randall. He pulls him off of Fergus and throws him across the room. As Jamie goes in to fight Randall, Fergus goes under a table.  The beat down Jamie was giving Randall was so good, I found myself disappointed when the bouncers came and broke it up.  Three big burly men it took to get Jamie off of Randall.  As he is being dragged away, Jamie calls Randall a sick bastard (that is the understatement of the year), spits at him and demands a duel.  Screaming that out within earshot of quite a few people there in the brothel was probably not a great idea.

Fergus blames himself.  He is just a boy and everything in the world comes back to him.  He cries and says "He is gone and he will never be coming back!" Claire holds him and tries to comfort him, her eyes wet with her own tears. 

The next morning, a bright eyed and determined Claire goes to meet Mother Hildegarde.  She wishes to ask the woman a favor.  She wants a private audience with King Louis.  She figured that since Mother Hildegarde used to be the god daughter of the old "sun king" (aka King Louis XIV ) that perhaps she had some pull to help gain her that request.  Mother Hildegarde replies that it seems Claire "has found a sea deep enough" but Claire replies that she is still angry, but she now knows Jamie's true reasons and he is still the father of her child.  Mother Hildegarde warns Claire that the king may require payment in the form of sex.  Claire pauses briefly, but replies profoundly with "If it comes to sacrificing my virtue, Mother.......I will add it to the list of things I have already lost in Paris."

The request is granted and we see Claire being led through the halls of Versailles. She is led to what looks like a part of the king's bedroom, perhaps a lounge.  The look on his face when she walks in is quite kingly.  A smug, arrogant ass look that makes you want to just bitch slap it off his face.  He asks her to sit and tries to entice and impress her with hot chocolate from New Spain (aka Mexico....thank you Aztecs!) and an orange from his many trees in his orangery. Claire feigns interest but is plainly feeling out of her element here.

The king sees this as he watches her drink the cocoa and he comes right out with the question of what he could do for her.  Claire tells him about Jamie in the Bastille.  Louis points out that Jamie had broken a royal decree.  Claire tries to argue that Jamie is a Scot and they are a proud and fierce people.  It looks like Louis may have had an argument for that as well, but Claire cuts it off and throws caution to the wind.  She looks right at Louis and says "I would be most grateful, you Majesty."  and gives him a look that makes her meaning more than clear.  Louis takes both of Claire's hands and asks if the one on her right hand is Jamie's and she confirms it is.  He then takes notice of the gold band on her left hand and states that yet she still wears that one.  He says he finds it most intriguing and he looks her in the eyes and says "Your loyalty is most......noteworthy."  He kisses her hand and Claire looks away.

Louis stops and says he is "inclined towards mercy" and asks she grant him a favor in return. Claire simply looks at him, acts demure and says she is at "his complete mercy."  With that, Louis takes Claire by the hand and strokes her jawline remarking the beauty of her fine white skin and adds "I can see why they call you La Dame Blanche."  Claire just looks at him, too nervous to answer.  Oh crap....wasn't he out for blood?  

Claire is led towards the bed, but instead Louis opens a door that is partially hidden by a wall.  He ushers her through and they walk down a hall to another set of doors that Louis pushes open and walks through.  Claire, looks around cautiously as she enters.  The guards by the doors with their creepy horror movie masks, the tables with objects on them, the starry sky ceiling and oh....Mon. Forez standing across the room.  Wait...what?

Before she can say or do anything, some guards bring out the Comte Saint Germain and Master Raymond.  Mon. Forez is asked to read the list of charges by King Louis.  They are apparently charged with using the quest for knowledge inappropriately and of sorcery.  Evidence is shown on the two tables.  One is from the Comte's house and the other items from Master Raymond's apothecary shop.

King Louis then introduces the witness of the evening, La Dame Blanche (aka Claire).  He explains that she can look into a man's soul and see what evil lies there.  Here is where we get to hear Claire mutter "Jesus H. Roosevelt Christ!" under her breath.  She is to look into each man's souls and determine his guilt.  She start with Raymond, but says nothing.  She looks at Saint Germain and claims to see masked men.  She says a name is coming to her - Les Disciples (the gang that raped Mary).

At this, revelation, Saint Germain explodes in anger towards Claire.  He calls her a liar and a witch.  He says she drank poison and lived and he knows so as he was the one who poisoned her.  The King looks surprised by this and the Comte adds that she has tried to ruin him and she doesn't even deny being a witch.  Claire gets a little evil smile and agrees that she does not deny it, but that she is a white witch and she practices white magic. King Louis reminds everyone that Claire is not the one on trial here.  Claire, being the person she is, cannot just go and condemn Saint Germain to death, even though she really hates the man.  However, if it were Black Jack standing there, I am sure she would do the honors herself.

Claire tells the Louis that both men have darkness in them, but it is the kind of darkness all men have, even a king.  Louis doesn't like that last bit and decides to hurry along the decision making because someone needs to be made an example of.  He calls for the serpent.  Not sure if this thing had a name, but it should have been called Gigantor. Inside a glass cage, was a huge snake.  An African viper snake with the biggest fangs ever.  Louis wants the men to hold the snake as a test of faith.  Claire stops him by saying she had a better test for them.  She will make a potion and they will each drink it.

Claire is given the okay and goes to the table of Master Raymond's belongings and finds what she is looking for -  Bitter Cascara.  Not really a poison as we know, but the Comte didn't know that.  She turns to the cup and before giving it to either man, tries to get the king to promise that whoever survives gets to walk away free.  Louis doesn't promise and says it depends whether it pleases him or not.

Claire walks over to Raymond and hands him the cup.  He looks at her and drinks.  He doubles over in pain for a minute but then, breathing heavy, returns to standing and hands the cup back to Claire.  She begins to turn towards the Comte and her necklace, the special stone that Master Raymond had given her to detect poison, begins to turn black.  This means there is poison in the cup now.

The Comte sees the stone turn black and gets a look of surprise and "Oh sh**" on his face.  Claire's is of pure honest surprise.  She hesitates to hand him the cup, and he is quite hesitant to take it from her.  Louis orders for it to be done and she hands him the cup and Saint Germain reluctantly takes the Cup O' Death from her hands.  He gets a smug smile on his face and looks at Raymond and says "I salute you Master Raymond, you evil bastard." then looks at Claire with disgust and hate and says "And you, witch who f**ks the c**k of the Devil, I'll see you in hell." and drinks from the cup.

It is a horrible and obviously painful death for Comte Saint Germain.  Apparently, when Master Raymond doubled over, he managed to have a little something extra up his sleeve....literally.  He did one of his slight of hand tricks and added the nasty poison to the cup.  LOL!  The Comte dies gurgling on the sundial on the floor, and the king barely looks at him as he steps over the body towards Claire.  He tells Raymond he is free to go, but he has to leave France that day and promise never to return.  As he is being lead away, Claire watches him go and thinks of a line "from that timeless classic".  The movie would be The Wizard of Oz and the line is one of Dorothy's to Scarecrow...."I will miss you most of all."

With Master Raymond gone, King Louis then turns to Claire and says there "is still the matter of payment".  A look of utter confusion comes over Claire's face and she looks down at the dead body of the Comte and back at the king in disbelief.  She, like many, thought that the trial was the payment, but obviously not.  Greedy bastard ain't he?  Louis takes her back to the bedroom where she is led to the bed, sits down on the edge and is gently pushed back by Louis.  He then gently lifts her skirts and his trousers and he gets on to collecting that debt. Pathetic really.  I mean the man gave 4 mediocre thrusts and was done.  He might want to get that checked out. Claire meanwhile hardly has time to "think of England" and he is done.  She gets the same expression I am sure many of the viewers had....."that was IT?"  He retreats across the room to straighten himself up and allow her the courtesy to do so also.

She slowly stands, still in disbelief, and straightens her dress.  Louis waits until she is ready, then states that he will grant Jamie a pardon and will arrange the same with England if they should decide to return to Scotland.  Louis ushers her to leave to which Claire just looks at him and takes her orange on the way out.

Back at the house, Jamie arrives back.  No one greets him at the door, including his own wife. He slowly ascends the stairway and is finally confronted by Claire who stands there, but won't look at him.  He is disheveled, dirty and sports a beard that should have it's own name (isn't that right Benard? aka Rik Rankin's beard).  Once in the bedroom, silence is at play.  It is Jamie who breaks that silence by saying "I don't even know if it was a boy or a girl Claire.  Will you make me beg?" Claire answers quietly but with bitterness and matter of factness as she tells him "It was a girl."  She goes on to say that Mother Hildegarde baptized her Faith and buried her in hollowed ground in the cemetery next to the covenant.

Jamie states that he did try to keep his promise, but Claire interjects by telling him that Fergus had told her what had happened.  Jamie is relieved to hear that and says that then she can understand why Randall could not go unpunished.  This entire time, Claire has refused to look at Jamie and when Jamie asks her outright if she hates him, she finally lifts her eyes to his, pauses and says "I did hate you."

Claire continues and tells Jamie about what happened and about the baby from the moment of her waking up to an empty stomach and demanding to know where the baby was.  This was the part that I thought they had left out!  I was very happy to see it and, boy, was it a tear jerker!  Mother Hildegarde brings a frantic Claire the bundled baby girl, "So I wouldn't have to imagine" Claire tells Jamie.  At this point, we are seeing Claire holding Faith and gazing at the swaddled child with such love, tenderness and wonder as any new mother does.  We go back to Claire with Jamie and her words are absolutely beautiful, but there is bitterness and grief on her face.  

"She was so beautiful......and so small.  I could cup her head in the palm of my hand.  Her ears stuck out a little. You could see the light coming through them.  The light through her skin as well.....like the light on a pearl still wet from the sea.  Her eyes were closed.  No lashes yet.  They were slanted a bit.  Like yours. She had wisps of the most......beautiful copper hair."  These words, minus a line which I believe had something about the nuns saying all babies eyes are slanted at birth, is straight from the book.

Jamie is quiet and listens intently to every word that his wife says and watches her face.  At the mention of the slanted eyes like his and the hair, he looks away and down briefly, but looks up again at the utter silence that has come over Claire again.  

Claire is remembering of holding Faith.  She is holding her and singing a seaside song to her while stroking the tiny face and fingers.  She is rocking gently and the scene is so sweet that you almost forget that the baby is actually not alive.  It is more than heartbreaking.  The camera pulls back and we see Mother Hildegarde has called in Claire's friend Louise to try to help with the situation.  Louise asks the Mother how long has Claire been doing this and Mother Hildegarde tells her that it was since that morning.  Louise, very pregnant at this point, rubs her belly, sighs, and walks over to Claire's bedside.  Tears welling up in her eyes to see her friend in such a state.

Louise reaches Claire and gently strokes her friend's arm.  Claire looks up and smiles and wishes to show off Faith to her friend.  "She's beautiful, isn't she? Ten fingers, ten toes."  Claire tells her.  Louise smiles and agrees that she is beautiful and that "she's an angel".  No pun intended, right? She asks softly if she could hold her, at which Claire's demeanor and body language changes.  She hovers over the baby protectively.  "It is time my dear." Louise tells Claire and puts her hands out to receive the child. Claire begins to sob and shake her head, but realizes she does have to let go.  She kisses and strokes the baby's face and reluctantly hands her over to Louise, who turns and gives the child to Mother Hildegarde.  Claire, her arms empty and another thing taken from her there in Paris begins to wail uncontrollably.  She refuses any comfort from Louise and instead throws herself face down in the bed.

That scene was gut wrenching for me.  It is more powerful to watch on screen.  Caitriona Balfe's performance this entire episode was to die for.  Emmy worthy to be sure.  She made it possible to feel what Claire was feeling....the loss....the betrayal....the grief.  It hurt like hell.

Claire, back with Jamie, has no tears in her eyes.  She looks right at Jamie and says "So yes.  I HATED you."  to which Jamie, who has been standing the entire time sits down hard.  Looking the worse for wear with those words and his soul sinks.  However, Claire is far from finished.  Instead of cutting into Jamie and making him feel worse, she instead tells him it is all her fault.  "It was me who asked the impossible of you.  It was me who put Frank before our family.  It was me who.....followed you into the woods."  Jamie quietly chimes in that Frank is her family as well.  However, Claire comes back that Frank was not there and now neither is their daughter.  Her eyes are getting wet now.  Jamie says nothing, so Claire continues with "It is not your fault.  It's not even Randall's fault, not this time.  It's my fault."  Jamie murmurs a term of endearment in Gaelic and reminds her of a time when he asked for her forgiveness and she had told him there was nothing to forgive.  He stands up and walks towards her, his face strong and intense.  "The truth is.....I already forgave you long before today for this and anything else you could ever do."  Finally, with these words, Claire's face softens, but she tells Jamie there was one more thing.

Claire confesses to Jamie that she slept with the king in exchange for his freedom.  Again, instead of any anger, Jamie's eyes looked a little shocked, and dart around before he comes up with a reply.  A tear escapes his eye and he tells her that he accepts that as it was to save his life, much like how he gave himself to Randall to save hers.  Claire, fighting the urge to sob, finally asks how they can ever be the same.  Jamie admits that they cannot, because of the weight of what has happened.  However, although the weight is too much for just one of them to bear alone, as he kneels at Claire's feet, that the only way they were going to get through it was together.  Claire asks if he is sure and he says that they lost a their baby and by the grace of God they "may be given another".  Claire tells him then she wants to go home.  "Take me to Scotland" she tells him and Jamie is happy to hear it.  However, there is something he needs to do first.

Their first thing they do together to heal is to visit their daughter's grave.  Jamie is kneeling and kisses one of the apostle spoons.  It is St. Andrew, patron saint of Scotland.  If they must leave her in France, he says, then they will leave a little bit of Scotland with her.  They both cross themselves and Claire comes down to kneel with Jamie to pray and to say their goodbyes.  While both are looking at the grave, Claire blindly finds Jamie's hand and squeezes it tight.  They say their final goodbyes to their first born child they never really got to know.

WOW! Is all I have to say.  Out of all the episodes since number 1, this by far is my favorite.  I think not only cinematically  done beautifully, but stuck to the book quite closely.   Yes, there were a few things that were different.  Claire never goes to Fountainbleu to heal (Louise's summer home in the countryside).  Jamie shows up there in the book and Claire wants nothing to do with him.  He had been out of jail for awhile and finally decided to come to her.  They fight and it isn't pretty.  She cuts him down and when she finally admits to sleeping with the king, Jamie is NOT as nice as TV Jamie was.  However, they finally make it through.  They are forced back to Scotland because King Louis demanded they leave France and that is why he arranged the pardon with England as well.  However, I am okay with that.  See....some think that when I complain about them changing something in the books, I hate it all, but I don't.  It is certain things....(see my opinions on episode 208 next!).

Overall, a very powerful episode and I would love to hear your opinions on it!